PART I

this is the first dayy!
hari ini, tepatnya hari sabtu gue ikut pengarahan ttg LDKO pertama
hemm all the preparation are quite complicated
bayangin qta harus buat name tag dengan bentuk cassette
OMG males bgt
belum lagi yaah gue jg harus buat buku LDKO alias buku tanda tangan
harus di jilid, 60 halaman!
get my ass off!
males banget gilakk!!
udah gitu bekalnyaa aja harus hamburger segilima!!
totally wasting time!
but i still try to face it
harusnya kan hari itu gue ke rumah temen gue buat bikin name tag plus buku LDKO nya
tapi i had a party so i just left it away
uda bingung aja gue gimana niyh tugas" osis
gue ampe ga ikut nginep di villa di puncak gara" stressed out mikirin ini
eh lo tau ga?
temen" gue ga jadi datang, gue juga ga tau ada kerja kelompok gitcyu di rumah anak capsis lain
yaudah deh disitu gue kesel bgt trus cried
:(
pas hari senin, opa ngajak makan diluar
i said, "lets have lunch at the mall!"
then we went to the mall
makan di resto namaya raa cha kalo ga salah
kinda mirip yuraku gitu
tapi it isnt a buffet
cara pembelian makannannya lbi mirip di yong tao fu or wtv namanya
tapi masaknya sendiri
duet gitu antara yuraku ama yong tao fu
hahaha
abis itu pas opa lagi liat sepatu for golf, gue buru" nepon mel
alhasil nongol lah sebongkah lemak di toko sepatu
wkwk
jadi gue jalan deh ama mel ama cc gue hari itu
yah mayan lah daripada just stay home and being lonely, ya ga?
jam 8 gue baru pulang
ngaret banget bok!
mana belum foto
sial banget gue itu mau foto malem" malah ada orang meninggal di rumah deket nomor 23
alhasil gue harus puter otak mau foto dimana
eeehhh
cc gue yang tadinya mau nemenin nyetak malah cabut duluan
sumpee gue kesel banget!
gimana dong besok??

continue to part II

invincible - jesse mccartney

i cant stop singing this song whenever i miss blake
guys, he's in coma now
he had a car accident a few days ago
before he had it, he said ive been a good friend from the first time we met
(not mentioning as a daughter)
man, at first i just said okay.
he act like he was about to go for a long time
(since he has to finish the thesis for his graduation either)
so i thought it was okay
but then i started to tell chris about this thing
and she said, "maybe he's going to.."
you know la what it means
but i still dont believe it
a couple days later, chris called me and she cried a lot
she thought blake has already passed away
luckily she was wrong
blake still in coma now
becca and his daddy went to US to see him
i hope, he'll get a warm family who can take care of him after this thing happened
he's been damn lonely this past 4 years
and really this invincible song made my tears fell off lots!
GET WELL SOON MY SILLY!

capsis

this is the answer of my post title, "do i still have to survive :("
actually, NO!!
im free now!yeay!
i dont have to be mocked by my mom for being home late,
or being sick with having no time for rest
yeaah im totally free
its a hard decision to decide wheter to still go on or just give it up
but today, i got sick and dropped
automatically i have to leave this organization
sorry friends but i can stand it for no more
so i'd better out
thanks for everything
for all the helps this past 2 weeks
i'll start to tell ya about capsis right after this blog posted
:)

MOS

its been, mmm almost a month until my last post about the acceptance.
my orientation days seemed not bad since we had not much activities
i met some new people with lotsa background
i wasnt fabs, noone likes me i guess
:(
they love to ignore me
i hate it, im a human too right?
just treat me as you treat others
just ask me anything you like,
i'll help as long as i can
dont judge me as i am a fool
oww thats hurt me so dweappp

do i still have to survive? :(

memang sih judul blog gue hard work
dan gue uda wujudin judul blog gue dengan segala usaha gue
tapi apa hasilnya?
dari awal masuk ya gue dikacangin orang"
gue kek alien mars yang nyasar di bumi
oke at first gue pikir this is what we call beginning
tapi lama kelamaan keadaan ga kunjung membaik
emang sih gue dapat beberapa teman baru yang asik
tapi yang rese juga ga kalah rame
ampe ada yang adu bacot ama gue di kelas
nanti deh gue perinci di post" berikutnya
hari semakin memburuk setelah gue daftar osis
memang sih asik
tapi masa iya masih asik kalo semua pendapat dan anggapan lo ga di gubris?
semua ampe jerih payah lo sia sia?
gue ga ngerti tapi sumpah mereka ga punya sopan santun
gue uda bilang masuk sekolah negri bukan pilihan yang baik
banyak yang harus dibenahi dari awal
teman" gue aja males bgt kalo disuru masuk sman
tapi mau gimana?gue diminta (istilahnya) ama keluarga
masa iya bisa nolak?

finally!

after long way tried hard
(actually one day ;p)
i got friends!
yey
they all good!
i started to love them today!
2 of them are my senior, sunbae or senpai (thats all same)
lol
he (my senior at sman 21) said that the orientation will be a bit horror!
i wonder how would it be!
yaya said that her sista had to run from monas or HI to sman 21!
thats crazy!
i wont do that!!!
but im still excited to wait for saturday!
meet new fellas and crushes
lol
neways thanks for the congrats greeting yaya!!
love yaw soww dweep!
XDD

YIIPPEEY

actually i almost dumped from sman 21.
but then i stuck on 222, 226, and got 228 for the final result!
a bit ah not a bit a lot of tegang pastinya ya.
tapi finally i did it!
thanks God!!
i don't know how to act when i knew that i could entered the school.
really full of suprise!
its like to win a 1000.000 dollars check!
lol
yahh..rada sedih juga sih secara gue cuma kenal Stanley dan Stevi (anak autis yg sebenarnya gue juga ga gitu kenal)
biar stanley rada lame plus lebay tapi asik juga diajak bicara
(since we got a similliar in hobbies so we're connected ;p)
tapi maybe i'll act like i don't know who Stevi is
since he is a dumbo and i don't even talk to him even once!
yah just act like a newbie usually acts
secara gue jg dulu masuk don bosco 2 kedampar sendiri dalam keadaan melongo dan tanpa teman
tapi gue enjoy aja tuh akhirnya gue bisa punya banyak temen juga
hahaha
life is all about NEW experience!
yah kalo ga new ga up to date dong
kalo ga up to date yah ketinggalan
rofl!
tapi bukan berarti masuk school yg sama pas smp itu ketinggalan zaman
ga juga lagi, gue jg kalo boleh masuk db ya pingin juga masuk db
but unfortunately i didnt get the permission
:(
lingkungan baru harusnya sih asik
tapi ga tau juga yahh, soalnya Marcella tahun lalu masuk sana dan ga betah malah balik ke db
pas pertama gue survey sekolah juga gue ga tertarik ama 21
(secara rada horor gitu bok!)
tapi yah namanya juga yang berbau baru always makes us excited!!
uda gitu ada temennya stanley yg lumayan aduhai juga
hahaha
bosen gila gue di db liat itu" aja
tapi emang ada anak baru juga sih
ad ANDREW bok!
dia botak sih sekarang, bikin ga nepsong
ahahaah
dan lo tau ga sih, pas terakhir gue cek peringkat,
i found the name i knew
at first sih emang uda sempet liat
secara dia ga terlamapau jauh nemnya ama gue
tapi gue baru ngecek tadi
dia ternyata temen sd gue dulu!
dulu tuh dia aja peringkat 20an sementara gue ga pernah keluar dari 5 besar
rada shock juga sih gue
but people should change right?
jadi yah ga ada salahnya kalo emang God gives her way out from stuckin at the same place
baguslah kalo emang dia uda rajin belajar
lagian gue jadi nambah teman yang gue kenal juga kan
hahaha
sebenarnya dibilang gue ga mensyukuri semua ini gue berdosa banget lho!
secara ya gue ini Muslim, tapi i could admit that i live in the Catholic's enviroment
yah bukan salah gue juga kalo gue maunya masuk Katolik
cuma bokap gue fanatik banget bok!
yah mau gimana
gue jd jarang sholat
sebenarnya gue merasa bersalah juga
secara Allah uda ngasih semua yg gue mau
dari jadi pemain biola yg talented, bisa nyanyi, fast learner ampe dapat nem 34,35 beli blackberry and get into the sman 21
cuma masalahnya sholat itu berat bok buat gue
mungkin yah karena gue juga ga gitu minat ama agama gue sendiri kali ya
tapi gue janji gue mau coba buat sholat lagi
tadi aja gue sujud setelah tau gue masuk sman 21
tadinya gue kan ga pernah sok" alim bersyukur gitu
tapi emang gue bersyukur banget kali ini atas hikmad yang diberikan
(asek bahasa gue)
>.<
yang jelas THANKS GOD!
peace on earth!!
lol
buat teman" yang ga bisa masuk ke 21,
gue turut sedih
T.T
bukannya muna yah tapi emang sedih
tadinya lo semua gave me power to believe that we all could enter the school
terus satu per satu dari kalian hilang dari peradaban murid yg keterima di 21
gue jadi tegang sendiri dan sedih juga karena ga punya teman dekat
gue sempet hopless tapi lo semua ga berhenti cheer me up
so i got my strength again
emang kita terpisah sekolah
but we sure could meet again babeh
FRIENDSHIP NEVER END!

SMAN 21

aduh gue uda terlalu tegang buat nulis blog ini dalam bahasa Inggris!
bayangin gue yg tdnya urutan 104 uda ad di urutan 161 sekarang
gue yg tdnya berada di tengah" halaman 3 sekarang uda diurutan teratas halaman 4
temen" gue jg uda pada out semua
(except stanley and stevi)
gue uda ga tau mesti gimana lagi!
gue frustasi berat
masuk kesanapun gue jauh dari kawan" gue
ga masuk sana gue lebih jauh lagi dari teman" gue yg di db
gue pengennya gue ama yaya masuk 21 entah gimana caranya
gue sebenarnya ga sanggup hidup jg kalo masuk sman 77
secara ya, gue mau masuk 21 karena mutu
(itu aja uda negri)
kalo gue harus ke sman 77 yg mutunya jauh, mau jd apa gue?
mending gue masuk swasta
mending gue di tempat yg jelek sekalian
toh mutunya sama!
GOD!this is my last pray to ya
with all my stubborness thing or wtv you call this
pleasee pleeeeeasee bgt get me into sman 21!
i want it badly
STOP DONG YANG DAFTAR SMAN 21
or else who didnt get sman 8, 81, or 68.
bentar lagi kayaknya MA HEART REALLY GONNA STOP BEATING!!
ahhh matek aja gue!
TUHAAAAAANNN TOLOONGGGGGGGGGGG DDDDDDDIIIIIRRRIIIKKKKUUWWW!!